YOU GOT ISSUES PART 14, THE EFFECTS OF A ALCOHOLIC

YOU GOT ISSUES,PART 14, The Effects Of A Alcoholic Parent

You been through a lot huh?  The verbal abuse , physical abuse not being able to trust what they say no matter what. They have failed you so many times but you love them so you take them back in no matter what. This is my story

I grew up with an alcoholic father who drunk heavily although he never hit us but the words sticks forever the damage stays forever.

I have never once picked up a drink I fear I would be like him people have told me I would be like him so I promise myself I would never touch a drink. I love my father dearly but drinking drove him away from me my siblings and even my mother

When I was younger I wanted to tell him

Drinking or us but it’s not that easy

It’s addictive it’s in there daily routine it’s as if

They can’t live without it. I fear and fear that I don’t marry or be with someone that drinks

Cause you know what people say girls always end up with someone like their father.

I rather be alone my whole life than deal with that again

I never knew how to help him his daily mood swings it’s like one minute he was him and the next it was a whole different personality

When all I wanted was my father.

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you a glimpse into my head QWN

It’s like he didn’t choose us he left us to take another sip another drink that’s just him

I wanted my parents to stay together forever

But with the drinking the constant fighting

The crying wanted to fight for him for them

you just give up you take it for what it is

You never believe anything that say

The constant promises that where all broken

The trust that was broken

You don’t know who they are anymore

I just wanted my father but I guess that was him too it’s harder to accept each day

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You miss them don’t you ? The person they use to be the loving the kind the friend the parent

You want them back you offer and offer them help

But you can’t help them they have to want to help themselves

And I know it’s hard but sometimes you really have to let go to be better for yourself happy for yourself to even grow you keep getting your hopes up and getting let down

You have to realize your parents your friends

Are people to they go through they own problems to you can have empathy

But you don’t have to take there problems with you speak up for yourself tell them how you feel

Set those boundaries with them

They might or might not hear you out but I promise your words will linger on them

Just like the words they said lingered on you

But don’t take it to heart because it’s coming from a dark place what they have been through

You want to fight back? FIGHT BACK!!!

To all the people that have loss parents family and friends from drug abuse

Please know that you’re not alone I know you ask yourself why didn’t they just choose you

I understand I constantly worry my father

Alcoholic consumption will one day take his life

But I have to also live mine

You have to live yours also

Short Messege- Suicidal Hotline Is 988

If You Ever Need To Contact Me

My Gmail is elliottqiana8@gmail.com

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WE GOT THIS DONT QUIT NOW!!!!

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