YOU GOT ISSUES,CHAPTER 2 Part 2,ANXIETY

You Got Issues,Chapter 2 ,part 2 Anxiety

The constant need to fix everything I do or say

The fear of judgement that pushes me not wanting to get close to anyone

The constant negative thoughts that tear me down

My anxiety has cost me so many missed out moments in life

I never get close to people ,one moment it’s like I can do that I can talk to people,laugh

But after that I shut down I don’t want to be bothered and it’s not them it’s just me

My constant need for peace when people where tearing me down

The feeling after they left and I always felt guilt

Them guilt tripping me when I couldn’t be all they needed , me trying to set boundaries

Yet they tore them down just to do the exact thing they said they wouldn’t

My anxiety is brought on by trauma responses

I always felt like I had to be better than what I was on the inside

Don’t be to loud people will look at you differently you have to be the good daughter

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It won’t let me be happy

One minute it’s like the sky is sunny

Than all of sudden it’s dark again

It constantly reminds me I’m not good enough

I can’t ever stay focused

I’m always fidgeting I’m always nervous

It’s like I have everything together

Than it falls apart

And I can’t stop my chest from beating

It beats and it beats

It gets louder within a second

But they won’t know

Because I act like everything is okay

I don’t know how to escape from my head

I don’t know how to just have fun

My anxiety always has to remind me

I’m here to stay

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I know people with anxiety can understand me

The constant panic attacks

The constant thoughts

The therapy session that really don’t help

But yet you still feel accomplished because

You reached out

It’s like your walking into life with a blindfold

You know something bad will happen

Yet you just keep walking no matter what

You have struggle you have lost all motivation

Yet you’re here you haven’t given up yet

and that’s all that matters

Anxiety can really hold you back from so much

The college experience, Gaining new friends, Job opportunities and even relationships

You want to get out there

You want to experience new things

And it’s not like you don’t know how to

But there’s to many choices

That could be right or wrong

The judgement of others

The constant need to improve yourself

The questions am I even doing anything right

And than there goes your heart again

Now you can’t breathe

And you have fallen again

You do end up getting back up

But each time you feel like you’re repeating the same process

Even though you have learned your lessons

That life has taught you

You keep going through them and it make you numb

And you think it’s growth when it’s this ongoing cycle

And you don’t know what to do next

You have all these plans and life

Just setting them in place

Has always been hard

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Life is a blindfold , You don’t know what will happen you can’t control it and you can’t control what people have done to you, What you can control is your reactions, you’re path

You got this even though you might not have the motivation,the people right in your corner

You have Yourself , The ideas ,don’t think it isn’t enough gone head try it out

There might be setbacks but keep on trying don’t give up yet , Focus on confidence

Tell yourself you’re enough , Try to do new things every day , If You’re comfortable you haven’t grown Don’t Be Afraid—-

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