You Got Issues,Part 15, Questioning

You ever just question why you’re here

Like you made so many plans and goals in life

but what is my purpose what am I really fighting for

why have I been through all these obstacles

Only to build me ? What’s after that

“I don’t have many friends although I’ve made plenty”

I sit in the background I hate attention

I just rather people not know me

Because I fear of what they might think of me

I’ve never been a bad person

I’ve always been genuine even when people

Switched up on me

I sit in this room by myself

Almost every day I just want to know why

Im here I want to be amuse

It just feels like a routine

Not saying I don’t like it

Im just numb to everything

Even my feelings towards others

People do me wrong and I just accept it

And go on

I feel because of the trauma I went through

I just don’t know how to feel anymore

I think and I think

Hopefully I find the answer im looking for

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Here for this selection im going to give

you a glimspe into my head QWN

It's like the days keep passing on and all these

questions of what's next

it just feels like where all here just to die

What is the meaning of all this

I know where all supposed to find our purpose

Find a reason to fight for what we love

But I'm just numb

Some days I think to much

Some days I get so high where I just

Zone out and let it all slip away

And it's not like I'm sad it's more of I'm getting bored

Why don't I just go out

I'm to aware for anything to be fun to me

I'm to scared to take a risk and it all falls on me

What's next?

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The feeling of not knowing

Am I doing everything right?

Is this the path I'm supposed to be on

you have no one to guide you

Youre in this blindly you try to trust your

Gut but you don't even know yourself like that

All these questions yet who do you turn to

To answer them?

Most people say God,Intuition

Sometimes I just feel like they ain't listening

My mind be spiraling

I just want to make sure I'm doing this right

I know it's okay to make mistakes

That I'm going to have setbacks

I just don't want to look dumb when I really

Was trying

Have you ever just thought

I'm here but why was I put here

What's my calling what something I'm good at

That gets people attention

I want you to ask yourself that

What's making you happy

Keeping you going from not giving

Up 🖤

Short Messege- Suicidal Hotline Is 988

If You Ever Need To Contact Me

My Gmail is elliottqiana8@gmail.com

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WE GOT THIS DONT QUIT NOW!!!!

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