Battlefield ⚔️🪽

My mind was in a race with my consciousness

A battle with the Past Present and my future

I was on a ongoing battlefield

So many words were in front of me

I jotted it down like I got struck by lightening

I reached enlightenment

The first to reach an awakening before my Comrades

See I had to think quickly, swiftly  They already switched teams  I was a one man army I had to move accordingly

They sided with the enemy    The clock was ticking 🕰️

I was in survival mode I was panicking

But my expression showed

Fuck around and find out I’m with this shit

As I reached a stand still    A bit of peace

My mind went blank …. No words left to say

Who was going to write the rest of my testimony Maybe this was a sign from God

To stop thinking and to start with action

Don’t think 💭 just aim 🎯

Than Shoot 🔫

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My mind with blank like I was in pitch black darkness

God can you hear me ?

At one point he was on speed dial

He answered every call

He didn’t let it ring

But it ringed three times and went straight to voicemail

Anger reached the surface

I screamed I cried God why …….

I’m scared

I’m getting aimed at from every direction

And God you know I’m not bulletproof

Physically speaking

But than I thought to myself

God is within me

The kingdom of God is within me

See he wanted me to meet him halfway

he wanted me to remember

That spiritually I’m impenetrable

I needed to stand my ground

So I started making movement

I thought I was moving slow that I was stagnant

But from others point of view

I was making big steps

I was stomping

He wanted me to see his understanding

And not the lies not the projections

others wanted me to believe

All I had to do was keep going and not look behind me

Sincerely Da’Vanity⚔️🪽~

Short Messege- Suicidal Hotline Is 988

If You Ever Need To Contact Me

My Gmail is elliottqiana8@gmail.com

Instagram- @dda_vanity

WE GOT THIS DONT QUIT NOW!!!!

typos included I'm free writing 🫶🏾