YOU GOT ISSUES,PART 9,ME VS ME

YOU GOT ISSUES, PART 9,ME VS ME

I feel at this time in my life

Like I’m the only one bringing myself

Down and Ik a lot of you can feel that

everyone telling you how smart you are

You’ll do good and that you’re so pretty

Deep down you don’t even know

That person their describing

You don’t even know who you are

Anymore

Some days you laugh, some you’re sad

Or just angry at the world

They’re all you right ?

but u get to a point you don’t know which

To choose

Your in this constant battle with urself

Anybody that tries to get in

You push them away

Because of those insecurities

Because you’re not confident

You say you’re better alone when in reality

You really do need people

But your in your head to much

You find it hard to come back

You’re your biggest hater

Why can’t u just be nice to urself

What happen to u

Did the constant years of u

Not feeling pretty u wanting to

Be like others girls get to you

Did the jokes ur friends thought

Where funny

Finally spin your head around

You believed them too

Did the hurt from your exes

Hurt u that bad

That you thought it was ur karma

You deserve it

What made u think this was ok

Why can’t you just love yourself

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Here for this next selection I'm going to give

you a glimpse into my head QWN

I want to love myself but it’s getting hard

I’m looking in this mirror

Wondering who tf that is

I don’t even recognize me

I tried to be this person

Who they pictured me to be

And it’s like I let myself down

Cause who am I supposed to be

Am I supposed to be this

Smart girl who gets all As

The shy girl who barely talks

Or the one whose always funny

I just don’t know

But when I’m in my room

All alone all I have is myself

And these thoughts

And I just be thinking I really

Don’t even love myself

Fr I just keep having

Relationships because I lack

The love for myself

So at the end of the day

It’s like I’m in this constant battle

With myself

Because I don’t love myself

Because I’m my biggest hater

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I sometimes feel I cannot love myself

I guess I constantly think

About everything I go through

And I’m like they didn’t love me

So why should I love me

Don’t get me wrong I still take

Care of myself

But mentally it’s like I’m in this

Constant war with myself

I’m constantly tired

I really hate going out

I always judge me

I ask my friends should I post this

Do I look cute today

They look at me stupid

It’s just when I see me

I don’t feel that I’m pretty sometimes

And I wanna be confident but how

I let myself down on most days

And everyone has the high hopes for me

But I can’t accomplish what they want

I just end up letting everybody down

When I just wanna be me

I’m not trynna be lazy

I’m just trynna be free

So who should I be

Should I act fake and ignore

This?

I can’t do that anymore

It’s time where we let out our

Feelings ,say what we wanna say

I feel when you hold back

That’s you taking shots at yourself

Constantly

When you speak down

That’s you just putting negativity

In yourself

So how do we stop being

The antagonist in our

On story

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If You Ever Need To Contact Me

My Gmail is elliottqiana8@gmail.com

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WE GOT THIS DONT QUIT NOW!!!!

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