⚔️ Love💗

From a young age, we develop crushes

It starts with butterflies in the stomach

Then turns into that gut-wrenching feeling—heartache

“It was me, not you”

We constantly heard

I love you

I love you too

I love you more

Then… silence

Growing up, it always felt like something was missing

I would say I knew love

But did it ever know me?

Was I rushing because I felt too deeply?

Was I trying to fill a void

I couldn’t name?

I tried to make things work

But like any equation

It canceled out

Was the formula wrong?

Or was I?

I continued to overpour

Jumping in headfirst

But it was never enough in the end

And as I’m writing this today

I do feel a bit of regret

Because of the mistakes

Because I overgave

Because I didn’t know the difference

Between superficial connections

And lust

I fell

And fell

Into a black abyss

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I thought I needed relationships

I thought I needed friendships

To feel surrounded

To feel loved

But there was always that space—

Loneliness

Like I didn’t belong

Like I knew it would end eventually

I told myself they loved me

But really

I loved them

And I projected

I walked miles for people

Who never met me halfway

They watched

And as I reached my breaking point

From exhaustion

I finally asked for a helping hand

They denied me

And took more

I reached complete darkness

But as I sat in grief

I saw a tingle of light

It showed me true love

And it was me

I was the embodiment of love

The highest frequency

But I had to awaken

I had to fall to my lowest

To gain that perspective

To become whole

I was searching outward

Not knowing

Everything lived within me

And when I finally understood

The world responded

“I see you”

As the trees swayed

As the wind howled

As the sun set

And the rising moon

I finally saw love

All around me

Without needing validation

I saw its true form

Hello, Divine

~Sincerely Da’Vanity⚔️💗~

Short Message- Suicidal Hotline Is 988

If You Ever Need To Contact Me

My Gmail is elliottqiana8@gmail.com

Instagram- @dda_vanity

WE GOT THIS DONT QUIT NOW!!!!

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